Today’s my birthday. If you’ve been around this blog for any length of time, you know that I can use just about anything as an excuse to get a little reflective. But if you’re only letting me pick twice a year (because we all know once won’t work), I choose New Years and my birthday. So here goes.
I think I’ve learned more about myself in the last couple years than the rest of my years combined and the deeper I dig, the more I realize how goal oriented I am. I’m generally far more concerned about my future than I am about my present. Because of this, I’ve found that I’m rarely satisfied with where I am in life and that’s something I find myself fighting against regularly. But when I stop to think about things logically, feeling anything less than complete satisfaction just doesn’t seem to make sense.
My life today is better than 12 year old Allison ever could have imagined.
and that’s good enough for me.
I have a husband who’s literally the best looking man I know and takes better care of me than I take of myself. I have a house that’s cozy and perfect for our little family. I have a business that I’m super proud of. I can smell the flowers in our backyard from my office, and I’m having more good hair days than not lately.
So this year, my goals look a little different. They have nothing to do with where I think I should be, or what I’m not good at but that have everything to do with making the people and the world around me a little better.
This year I want more days spent outside and less time worrying about whatever’s on my phone. I want to tell more stories and try more recipes. I want to live a little less careful and take big risks. (because we all know that’s where the fun is.) I want to invest more into the relationships I have with people. I want the people in my life to recognize me as someone who cares. I want to send flowers to sick friends and make lasagna for sad friends. I want to remember birthdays and give gifts whenever I can. I want to love people more fiercely, follow my dreams more passionately, and enjoy all the little moments along the way.